Days and Nights

Just a quick reminder that I'm alive.
Actually more alive than I was in the past few weeks.;)
We have this extremly nice summer weather, today it was around 30°C. That makes me so much more energetive and positive.
I spent some nice time at Kopaszi gát which is so amazing this time of the year and still not that much people.

Visited also the Orczy garden which is extremly near to my workplace, but I have never been there before. So it was time for it! Such a peaceful little park. Definitely going to visit it more often.

Except these, I had some lovely ice coffees with a lovely readers of mine by the Danube... ;))

Visited the pub, called Macska (Cat). It's just next street, I always passed by, but never had a drink there. I have to say it's approved by us and quite sure it will be a haunt from now. I loved the family atmosphere, the design, my bitter beer, the carpets and pillows... Perfect for a drink after a long day.

And...

... a few more drinks.

...delicious breakfast.

...and my (dear) cat. :P

Be Happy

It's interesting how does your mood has an effect on your life and all the things that happening to you.
It's not a new discovery, but I'm always surprised how much that works...
The only difficulty is putting a dot after a negative story. To stop thinking about things that trying to pull you down.
It's enough if you go and have a nice walk on a sunny day, or you smile on a stranger, have a funny converstation with someone, cook a delicious meal or just make a lemonade and sit in your balcony.
And nice things will magnetize even better happenings. Just let go, just be.

:)

Ups and downs

So basically in the last few days I experienced how is it to be up and to be down. Mostly down.
Lots of questions, doubts, fears and sadness. The kind of sadness you don't even know where is it from, why it's here.. why now?!
When one piece is falling apart, if all the other pieces of you are fine and strong, they can keep you from going down. But if there are more doubts, then it's like a table with only two feet left.
This table is still so unstable. One day I think something, the other day I beleive in the opposite. Sometimes I wake up smiling, but go to bed crying.
Not that I like to be sad, but I believe these moments are important parts in our life and I think it's better to be sad sometimes and be very happy after, then keep a neautral level, the type of mood what I call "surviving". Lots of people live like that. Days after days, they do their everyday routine, go to bed and continue this all over again and again. They have a poker face and you have no clue if they are happy or hate their life.
I don't want to be like a living dead.
I rather admit that I have feelings, that I'm not strong all the time, sometimes I cry, but after all I always have a smile on my face, a big smile.. and I'll never let the World win! ;)

One way...

Really? I should believe there is only one way and...and no other?! I should wake up from my dreams?! Delete my bucket list and live in the reality?! Live like the rest of the people, because what I saw so far, is not true. I was wrong. They are all happy and love to do what they do. If I want to rest, if I want to switch off, if I want to see breathtaking ladscapes, I should simply stay here, because if I'm dreaming of traveling to far away places, it means I'm not happy here and I can't appreciate what we have in here.
I should find ONE thing that I like, be perfectly professional from it and do it until I get retired. And all together, I make myself unhappy with the fact that I want to be happier than anyone. Freedom, piece and other shits are just f***ing big lies. That's it. Now I know the truth. All I was believing don't exist. Thank you. The key of happiness is in my hands, right?!

 

Once I had a dream. A horrible dream. I was dead, but nobody knew it. I was so afraid that they won't notice what happened and they won't see me anymore, alhough I'm standing there and I was watching myself in the mirror. I saw myself, but I knew, nobody will do.
That's the feeling I feel when people doesn't get what I want to tell. They only hear what they want to hear and I'm just staning alone and listening to my own words.

Photo time... true or false?

You experience the moments or create moments?
I'm sitting next to the Danube, had a long day, the sun is shining, having my box of chinese food, a bottle of cold water, earplugs with relaxing music... And yeah i was keen to take a photo about this perfect moment.
As soon i looked around i just noticed that's what everyone else does as well. Really.
The guy on my right was trying to take an artisty picture about his bike with the river in the backround. Few metres away from that, 2 girls were capturing the moment of having their fresh drinks... And of course they composed it the way how their cool spring shoes were on the pic too.
In front of me a bunch of young guys were trying to create a cool sunbathing photo. It took about 5 mins to find the right pose. :)
So the question just came to my mind: are we really truly enjoy these moments, or we just want a great photo what we share on instagram and/or facebook? Are they real or just creating plastic moments?
As I'm kind the same as the mentionned people, I try to believe, we just live in a modern world and we have the possibity to capture every second and share with the world. Why not doing it then? Personally I totally love to take a look back at my old photos. Sometimes you forget about funny memories, stupid little nothings, a laugh, a smile, a crazy party, a long weekend...
I'm sure, our parents and grandparents would have done the same if they had the chance.

Only one thing to be careful about. Do not forget being true, otherwise your cool pictures will be empty. You can mislead others, but not yourself.

So go for it, have a coffee, walk in the sunshine, cook a nice meal, be with your loved one, dance like crazy... and take a pic.. maybe!;)

(Wild) Compass (For Freedom)

Finally I have it. So let the adventures begin.

Show me your tattoo, I tell who you are...

... or kind of.
Actually I'm not sure if I can completly agree with my title.

It's a bit antagonistic. On one hand, I feel like tattoos can express you, express your feelings, your point of view, your style, your personality... Although it can mislead people. Most of them just look at you, notice your tattoo, and suddenly they have a stereotype in their head. So from that moment they have a clear idea how bad and crazy you are.

I feel, the truth is, again as always, somewhere in the middle.

I hate when people just halve humanity into two sides, tattoed and non tattoed ones. Hah, funny.. or rather sad.
Don't like those "hard hat" people (I don't know if this phrase is uses in English too) who just live their life in a box and unable to admit, there is a World outside of this, something that is bigger than they are.
Yeah, sometimes I would like to shoot those people with a gun who have bad opinion about tattoos. ( I know I'm agressive:P) Or when they are talking about how horrible is it when somebody's body is full of these doodles. And when you calmly smiling at them and tell, "yeah, I have one on me too". Love that! Than suddenly they change their mind and start to find excuses! :P

Don't get me wrong. We are all different. I'm not waiting everyone to like being inked, but I just wait some acceptance. For example my family and most of my friends are not a fan of tattoos, but they accept me how I am. They know it's a piece of me and although they don't want one for themself, they just like mine.. or at least try to like! ;)

And I find important that I'm talking about the ones with meaning, not the fashion girls and guys who just want to be super cool...

I've got my first one last september. A bird. That means so much to me. Freedom, travelling, creativity, do what you want, go where you want...

The second one is not too old. I got it in February. Infinity. It's kind of a reminder for me to know that I shoud not worry, I have plenty of time, because we exist forever, ot at leats or soul does. I quite often afraid that I'm not doing enough. That time is passing by too fast and I still have millions of things to fulfill. But everytime I look at this symbol, it helps me.

Third one. Oh yeah, now you will understand why I'm writing about tattoos today... :)
For tomorrow I have an appointment. I'm going to get a compass. That will hopefully help me to find and choose the right way and take me to all those beautiful places I want to go.

So even if you are a tattoo fan or not. Take a minute sometime to understand others. Maybe if you are not concentrating that much to be so "earth-bound", you can discover some new beauties in life. And it will help to understand others.

All those (coffee) moments

Quite obvious that I need to write a coffee post.
This lovely hot (or cold) drink is an important character of the story of my life.
I love the feeling, the atmosphere, the whole culture of coffee.
You can chit-chat with your friends, go for a romantic date, study for your exam, read a good book, sit inside and watch the rain... the list goes on, but one thing that makes all these moments connected: coffee. And I love this.
Last year I've got my barista diplom and shortly after this I started to work in an amazing little art cafe in Budapest. So I can say, since that not only in my personal life, but also professionally speaking... coffee is all around me! ;)

My dream (one of mine;)) is to open my own cafe. I already have all those little ideas... the name of the place, the outlook, style, type of coffees, weird and crazy solutions, colors, smells... hmm... But I don't feel like I should do it now. There are so much more things to do until this. But I keep it in mind, and I'm sure, one day I'm goig to fulfill this dream.
Untill this, I wake up, I work, I relax and I enjoy my life with COFFEE.

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Time to time the question just comes to my mind... How easily friendships, relationships are changing. If you think back what did you do same time last year, who were around you, with whom did you share your deepest thoughts and dreams, who made you laugh or cry, who were your party buddies, people you got to know thru journeys or simpy those summer nights singing karaoke and drinking champagne... Where are those moments? Are those people still in your life? And if yes, still in the same position? They got closer to you or the most far as possible?
My answer is both. It's interesting how your life can change in a day, in a month, in a year.
I'm missing lot of people from my life. Maybe they don't even remember me or just don't want to remember. It's bitter sweet. I believe every single person has a reason to enter into our life and as soon as they tought something to us, they just leave. As fast as they arrived.
To quote one of my favorite writer, Müller Péter, (in kind of free translation;)) "The pieces fit together, because they were one." And that's so true, all the things, old classmates, friends, relatives, family members, lovers, everything and everybody who meant to be in your life, will be there for you. Some for short time, some of them for a lifetime, some come back later, some of them never.
But they all leave a mark inside us that change us a bit, or a little bit more! ;)

 

 

Let's breathe and travel!

I'm not telling a big secret for those who know me and after a few posts won't be a surprise for the people who just got to know me thru my blog, that I LOVE traveling. I'm addicted. This is the true happiness of my life.
I don't want to go on holiday once a year when I'm totally dead with zero energy, relax in a wellness spa for a week, than go back home and continue the same old routine. Don't get me wrong, I'm far from wanting to hurt anybody's feelings. I know lot of people live like that, and I don't say they are all unhappy. But the thing I know since my childhood, that I will live a different life. No matter what, it's not even a question. It's the only way for me to breathe.

 

But back to the start. What I wanted to share with you tonight is my top 5 MUST VISIT countries.

 

1. ICELAND: Ohh, yeah. It's more like a fact, then a surprising news. :P

 

2. GREENLAND

 

3. ALASKA

 

4. FAROE ISLANDS (New arrival on my list ;))

 

 

5. Northern NORWAY

 

 

Don't think I have to write extra comments. The photos tell it all. But later on, I'm sure you'll hear more about this places from me.:) Especially Iceland. I'm already organizing my trip, but pssst. Can't tell everything in one post! ;P

 

And you? Have you ever created your top 5? If not.. You should!

 

Topic? Whatever!

Actually yesterday I have been asked about the topic of my blog.
I kind of don't care honestly. I don't feel like choosing one exact subject and then follow this rule day by day no matter what else comes into my mind. It would violate the first and only rule of my blog, freedom.
I believe everything is connected in life and so do in writing.
Travelling blog, gastro blog, fashion, art, etc. Do you really think travelling exists without good food? Fashion without art? Art without discovering the world? And nice meals without a sense of art?
I'm living my life keeping this in mind. Quite sure that most of the people don't understand the fact that I have a tennis trainer, fashion stylist, barmanager and barista diplom. Besides this I think of myself as a painter and also a traveler. It's all me, if I would choose one, I'd loose millions of little pieces of my soul. That's the way I am whoever understands it or not.

Blogging world, here I am (again).
I was so keen to start over writing, but as always, the inception was the hardest part. You just so easily find something else to do... let's eat something, then I start. Let's listen to this song, let's finish this movie. let's have a break. I'm too tired. My head is too full. or too empty. or too lazy, too happy or too sad. BUT, finally here it starts. My blog, Wild Compass for Freedom. Oh, this title. Bit sentimental, but I have two reasons. 1. It was quite hard to find something which is still not taken. 2. I'm sentimental. :P